We still can’t believe it.
In what would be his final interview, the 61-year-old Parts Unknown host described himself as “happy” and spoke about his young daughter, 11-year-old Ariane.
“I also do feel I have things to live for. There have been times, honestly, in my life that I figured, ‘I’ve had a good run — why not just do this stupid thing, this selfish thing… jump off a cliff into water of indeterminate depth.'”
Bourdain added that he used to intentionally “go to places” where “I was, frankly, asking for trouble. It was a daredevil move”:
“In retrospect, I don’t know that I would do that today — now that I’m a dad or reasonably happy.”
The explorer said that he was “happy in ways that I have not been in memory” and “happy in ways I didn’t think I ever would be, for sure.” He attributed his happiness “somebody really strong” — seemingly referencing his girlfriend, Asia Argento.
Also in an interview with People, Bourdain commented that he would probably “die in the saddle” when asked about retirement. He said at the time:
“I gave up on that. I’ve tried. I just think I’m just too nervous, neurotic, driven. I would have had a different answer a few years ago. I might have deluded myself into thinking that I’d be happy in a hammock or gardening. But no, I’m quite sure I can’t. I’m going to pretty much die in the saddle.”
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